This is my last week to go to work. It is getting more difficult to go to the job, as I am beginning to actually accept that I will not be going there anymore. I believe that I am shedding some of the denial this week and the feelings of grief and anger are re-surfacing as the reality that I have been laid off hits me again and again. My office is cleaned out and most of my responsibilities have been re-assigned. In fact, I have to train others to do what I believed I was doing well.
I am looking forward to Friday, when I can walk out of the building for the last time and actually let these wounds start to heal. Beginning Friday evening, I am going to start my new life; one in which I will find peace and closure. I will be stronger because of this experience. I will be a better person. I have learned and will continue to grow as a result of losing my job.
Whether they call it "position elimination", "lay-off", "downsizing", or "termination", the grief process is the same. With pain comes growth... what doesn't kill you will make you stronger. I am confident that one day I will thank the decision-makers of this organization for this opportunity. I just wish I could find it in myself to say it to them this week.
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